I've noticed over the years that some of my dearest friends just love critiquing themselves for being too proud-full. It doesn't make any sense to me. Maybe I just don't know them well enough, but I've never noticed their pride. I've noticed confidence at times, but not a refusal to apologize when they make a mistake or to admit they are wrong if you confront them on something. In fact I've noticed just the opposite. I've noticed, in them, a humility and a willingness to admit that they aren't perfect and that they aren't done growing.
People talk about pride like it's the absolute worst bad trait out there and I've never understood why because I've never actually met a proud person.
I have met people who acted like they were way better than me when they weren't and originally refused to admit their mistakes, but every time I got closer to one of these people I discovered the truth of their self doubts. It's like my Mum says "sometimes short men try to make themselves taller by cutting off another man's legs." If someone is always acting like they are better than you it doesn't mean they believe it. It probably means they want to believe it.
I've heard too many whispered confessions followed up with the whispered fear of "am I a horrible person" to believe that people actually think they are awesome.
I think we all know we need to grow. I think we all know we make mistakes.
I think many of us don't know what to do with this knowledge. We don't know how to admit our mistakes, find forgiveness, and embrace growth: that's the problem! Not that we actually believe we are better than everyone else. So please either explain to me why I'm wrong or just stop going on about how we are all so pride-full, the pride is false, and it's covering up a bigger problem.
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